I haven't had the urge to study these days! A client asked me just now: Why haven't you graduated for so long? That's why I'm not in the mood to study! Taking 36 credits in one year before is completely void and those credits became creditless! I now need 18 more credits to graduate! Suddenly there is an uneasy feeling in my heart! Why can Christian universities be so evil? It was promised that there was no tuition fee, but after one year of study, it became a course of $1200, and I was very unwilling! But I still scolded the teachers of that Christians college the school shop and quit that school~ This is me! Thank God! I still found another school that doesn't require tuition, but doesn't recognize previous credits at all! I have to study again! Actually, I'm not lazy! I read very seriously! The hardest thing for me to read English is: the majors of psychology and theology! Because there is too much English in these majors, and my English is very poor! Although there is no tuition fee, I still need to spend a lot of time to study! I really study hard this period! I really can't focus on the evil of these Christians! I have to step up to finish the credits! Because I really don't want to disappoint God! He really gave me a lot of provision!

Many people will think why am I so tired? If I have the Holy Spirit, why do I need to complete the course! My personality is weird! This is what I asked God for! God didn't request me to complete the courses, but I said: I don't want to shame God! I don't even want people all over the world to think that those who do God's ministries are incompetent idiots! My English is really bad! Because I have rejected English since I was a child, and I have never thought about preaching, especially after being deceived by missionaries a few years ago, I feel that people who use the name of Christians are really rubbish! A few years ago, I encountered this kind of rubbish Christian university again! Actually, I am really disappointed with Christians! But God called me, and I promised to obey His calling! Because God has given me so much grace, I don't even know how to pay it back? I can only obey Him!

I still hope that I can finish my studies as soon as possible, in fact, I never read seriously! For me school study is a piece of cake! As long as I attend classes and deal with general exams, I will pass! But online courses are really difficult! One, I must have enough spontaneity! Second, to self-supervision! 3. It is easier to relax and be lazy if there is no requirement! It's really hard to complete each course without enough persistence! And there are too many distractions in my environment! I am not as people with money and background, they don't have to worry about 3 meals! Not only do I need to worry about 3 meals, but I also need to worry about the children! And our generation is so difficult! I really can't close the door of the church and preach without competition like those great pastors! I need to race against time! I need to help more young people of this generation, only they are the fundamental hope of changing America! Don't pin your hopes on politicians who are already in the coffin! Christianity is not bad! Christianity is very good! But the preachers are not good! It turned Christianity into a cult! What kind of fruit can missionaries bear without morality? What kind of students can Christian schools teach without morals? God made everything good, but we broke the good stuff! We make good fruit and rotten!