Last Sunday, it was nearly 100 degrees outside, and this week it was 100 degrees again. I went to Flushing to sing hymns for the past two Sundays. I thank God for not getting heat stroke! I really don’t want to go to Flushing to sing. Why? Because it takes about 4 hours to drive back and forth and find a parking space. This is without traffic jams. If there are traffic jams and no parking spaces, the time will be infinitely extended. Thank the Lord! Every time He asks me to go to Flushing, He has given me the greatest grace in terms of transportation, and it will definitely not take more than 4 hours. I have always wondered why God wants me to sing in Flushing? I go to Flushing not only to sing hymns, but also to sing some other songs. I chatted with my sister last night, and I realized God’s true intention. He wants me to walk into the crowd! Flushing is a place where people and snakes are mixed together! God asked me: Do only Christians in the church need the gospel? Of course not! There are many more people outside the vineyard who need the gospel! There are many people who don’t work in the vineyard. They may not even know that there is work in the vineyard. It is also possible that they don’t even know that there is a vineyard! Yesterday, I realized why I could turn street singing into a party? We don’t know the real needs of the world. If we don’t know the real needs of the world, even if the world knows there is a vineyard, they still won’t want to enter the vineyard! Last night, I told my sister: God threw me to the lowest level! Yes! God threw me to a place that no one wants to touch! Singing on the streets of Flushing will meet all kinds of people! Singing on the streets of Flushing is not as comfortable as singing in an air-conditioned room! To be honest, singing in Flushing really can’t make money! I spend 4 hours each time, how much money do I have to make to make up for my losses? Yesterday I told my sister: There will always be someone who sacrifices, and sacrifice can make the gospel spread! Although I can’t build life 100%, I can at least bring some people a little joy and hope, which is worth the price. I often ask God: I am willing to preach the gospel, but you must let me have enough food and money to pay all expenses! Thank God! He has done it so far! Now I have the time and energy to preach the gospel!

Yesterday, I met a woman who went bankrupt in China and spent 340,000 RMB to sneak into the United States. She was arrested and imprisoned twice and then released. She said: I don’t have any relatives in the United States! I said: If you know us, you can treat us as friends. I have always been very good to people! I never let anyone down, and I don’t take advantage of anyone. Of course, others have let me down too much, but I don’t mind or get angry. Why? Does a person who let me down and hurt me care about me? If they don’t care about me, why should I be hurt by them all the time? Suffering a loss is not necessarily taking advantage, but "suffering a loss" must learn to "stop loss"! When we suffer a loss, we must remember to "stop loss" and never let those who hurt us and take advantage of us continue to hurt and take advantage of us! Yesterday, the happiest thing was that many people saw a different Flushing! There was also a younger brother who ordered Chinese hymns! This younger brother is probably in elementary school. He can order Chinese hymns. His English should not be good enough because he is fluent in Chinese. There are many children who have just immigrated to New York from China, and many children may have been sent back to China for foster care since they were young. They came to New York to go to school. Do they need the gospel? Many people think that street performers are people without skills! Perhaps God thinks that I am not good enough, so God does not give me a church, but a street! I told my sister that the only thing God gave me was the "healing ability"! My sister said that many people use the healing ability to make money! I said that I don't use this to make money! I often heal non-Christians! Since I am not a Christian, how can I make money? How much money can I make by healing Christian sisters? God is my boss! This is an unchanging fact! He will definitely make as much money as He wants me to make! If He cannot provide me with enough living needs, how can God be God??

Just like Jesus said: My sheep will definitely recognize my voice! Whoever God wants to give the sheep to, the sheep will definitely listen to the voice of the shepherd! Yesterday, I found that my friend was very good at singing skill. She sang without subtitles, only accompaniment! I began to examine myself! When I sing hymns, am I as serious as she is? Although I can't sing every hymn, I must at least be like her~I need to memorize the lyrics of every hymn I can sing! Yesterday, my friend really made me examine myself thoroughly! I kept asking myself: Did I take God’s call on the street seriously? The answer is: I didn’t! I always felt that singing on the street was hard and there was no money to be made! Yes! I was serving with a “worldly heart” and facing this calling with a “worldly heart”! Because singing on the street is thankless, it is really more tiring and worthless than any other job! I didn’t do this “small thing” seriously at all! I can only say: I pay too much attention to “profits” and myself is greedy for personal enjoyment! After yesterday, I know: I shouldn’t sing with headphones! In fact, accompaniment is really important! I must say: Singing on the streets of Flushing is really hard, and I will encounter many unfriendly “vendors”. Singing on the streets of Flushing really allows me to learn and grow continuously! I learned how to face the crowd, and I learned how to deal with unfriendly people! From yesterday’s mistakes, I understand more clearly that I need to change my mindset. No matter what job, as long as God sends me to do a job, I should do it well! Only by being faithful in small things can we be faithful in big things. If I want to make money from serving today, I should not say: I want to do God's work! If I want to do God's work, I cannot focus on the "wage"! We all know the "wage" God gives us, and what we want to get is: God's reward! "God's reward" is definitely more valuable than these "tangible wages"! Therefore, I must work hard to memorize the lyrics of the hymns! I should work hard to allow people on the street to enter the "vineyard", let everyone see the hope of the vineyard, and let everyone understand that the vineyard can provide us with the necessities of life. When we enter the vineyard to work, we don't have to be deceitful, we don't have to worry about being afraid, and we will eventually have a beautiful and secure place to live! I am not the owner of the vineyard, but I need to allow more people to work in the vineyard, and I also hope that everyone can work happily in the vineyard!!